The decision to freeze your eggs, like any decision about your fertility, is highly personal and, sometimes, stressful—emotionally and physically. In a preview for Sunday’s episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, Kourtney Kardashian, 39, is seen injecting herself with hormones in preparation for having her eggs retrieved and frozen, a process that seems to be taking its toll.
At one point, Kardashian lifts up her shirt to reveal bruises on her lower stomach where she’s been injecting herself. But it wasn’t the pain of the injections that bothered her: It was how the hormones affected her mood that she found most alarming.
“I’ve been so up and down emotional because I’ve been doing the shots for the egg freezing,” Kardashian says while talking to two of her friends. “I feel like I want to jump out of my skin…I can’t take it.” She adds with a smile, “I feel fine, I just cry myself to sleep every night.”
Although she hasn’t actually decided whether or not she wants to have more kids (she’s already a mom of three), “I just feel like it’s for safety,” she says in the clip. “I hope that going through all of this is worth it because I really don’t want to put my body through this again. The emotions of it all are just a lot.”
Freezing your eggs is definitely an option for preserving your fertility, but it’s not exactly a guarantee of a future pregnancy.
As SELF explained previously, egg freezing is an important option for people who may be undergoing chemotherapy or who have a health issue, like endometriosis, that could affect their ability to conceive in the future.
But freezing your eggs is also an expensive process—in terms of money, time, and the physical toll it can take on your body. And the success of the procedure (in ultimately leading to a healthy pregnancy down the line) depends on many factors, including your age at the time of freezing and any underlying health conditions you may be dealing with.
So, it’s important to keep your expectations reasonable before going through with any fertility treatment, including egg freezing. If you’re interested in your future fertility, talk about your options with your doctor or reproductive specialist to make sure you’re going in with all the information you need to make the right decision for you.